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Got back from the U.K., approximately 2 weeks ago and I’m very happy to be home. I’ve been going up at the Comedy Store, doing my regular spots. I will be doing more spots this upcoming week at several venues across SoCal, so stay in touch.

All the attention has been centered on Michael Jackson for the past couple of weeks and still no one knows where the body is being buried. I really don’t care… honestly. I never met him and he never knew I even existed so who gives a sh*t? What has really been crazy is the amount of celebrities and/or athletes who have died during this time period as well. Farrah Fawcett, Steve McNair, Arturo Gatti, Alexis Arguello, Don Rickles and comedian (not as famous) Cain Lopez. I’ve never seen a week when so many people went down that were pretty well known, or that I knew of at least.

It’s an old cliché, but death is innevitable. We are never prepared to deal with the loss of someone dear to us in any way. Growing up as a little kid we don’t think about it at all, but I did. I always wondered what it’d be like to lose my parents at a young age because it happened to some of my friends. It’s easy to say “They’re in a better place” when it’s no one you were really close with, but it hurts the individual left behind very much. I never know what to say to people, and I think I stay away as to not be put in that situation, which sucks really because people in grief need your support, but I don’t know how to be supportive.

I’ve been very fortunate because the only person that I ever lost that was REALLY close to me, was my grandfather on my mother’s side. But he was 83, and as much as I miss him to this day, I knew that he had lived a long life and seen many things that I could only wish to see in my lifetime, so I knew it was his time.

I think it’s worse when you see people who die early in life, people who don’t even get to reach the age of 60. I think that dying anywhere before that (60), and even then, is still a young age to go. I hate it when people curse life and talk about how they’ve only come to suffer. You don’t suffer if you do right, that’s my way of thinking. I believe that if you do things which you truly believe are right, your conscious will allow you to live happy. People who don’t, suffer and carry demons that they make-up themselves because they can’t relax or feel tranquility. Life is a challenge, but it’s a wonderful and honorary one. Lots of us get trapped in the material things of life and don’t realize the free things, such as walks and playing in a park and evenings with the family are the most joyful things which we carry with us forever.

I’m rambling, but I hope I at least make sense. I’m just living my life I guess!

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